I am struck today at just how lost I am.
Somehow, my husband and I landed on our feet, and this year has been about repairing our marriage and finding a new path. But it’s not solid ground for me yet.
Perhaps there is a void that I hadn’t noticed. Perhaps it has been swelling and growing for sometime. I’m not sure what caused it; maybe it was left there when my husband took on some of the burden of our family life which had been mine to carry for so long.
I have stopped meditating. I am exercising hard. I am also drinking more than I should.
And, I have stopped being creative.
I am floundering. Directionless. In a mental, physical and spiritual rut. Feeling lost today and upon reflection of the situation, am quick to tears.
Meditation and creation.
I think these might help.
And a new tattoo.